No Role Modelz

No role modelz

 

First thing first, Rest In Peace Grandma K

You, the only Grand that I never knew

The only one I think would have loved me too

Prophecy that I made way back in the line,  aligned

Plans that I wasn’t sure it was gonna reap

Now that’s the path that’s working for me

 

One time for my real brothers and sisters

One time for the backstabbers

Lame me didn’t know the difference

One time for me learning and saying No!!!

 

No role models and I am here right now

No role models to tell me to stay up

It isn’t defiance when they don’t acknowledge your existence

It isn’t denial when they don’t even know  you exist

No father or big brother to take me out to the field and teach me what a real man should be

My mom had to do it all, be the mother, big brother and father

Momma’s love was enough for her and my absent father

 

One time for my real brothers and sisters

One time for the backstabbers

Lame me didn’t know the difference

One time for me learning and saying No!!!

 

My only regret was not saying love you to her too

My only regret was thinking she hated me for coming out her womb

She never once gave up on me

Never a second stopped loving me

Even when she scolded me

Even when she threw chairs and stools at me

She only wanted the best for me

 

One time for my real brothers and sisters

One time for the backstabbers

Lame me didn’t know the difference

One time for me learning and saying No!!!

 

 

Now I’m a growing boy

Broken a few barbies, that weren’t really toys

I thought it was love but all I did was get hearts destroyed

Cloned their hearts and made a decoy

Achilles as such I came to break their walls of Troy

Didn’t intend to but that was the mission when I was deployed

Only reason I learnt was when Nesi rubbed me badly

Then I knew Zira deserved so much more than un-lovely me

 

One time for my sweet lovers

One time for the heartbreakers

Lame me didn’t know the difference

One time for me learning some sense

 

I don’t think I did right by her

No I did her wrong but it was the only love I was taught

I could have done better

If I only knew how lovers were supposed to love

I want real love

That Okyeame and Mrs. K love

That sticks  with you when your bones had no meat

That Tracy and Michael love

I don’t have one

I am no more knight in shining armor

My love is deep but un-taught

What did you expect?

No role modelz to pass the torch